I "quit" smoking when I went to Seattle. By "quitting," I mean that I no longer buy any "fags" from a store, gas station, or any other form where money is exchanged for a pack of cancer sticks. However, "quitting" means that I just bum off of others and start my day out thinking about who I can hang out with today that "smokes?" Every time I drive down the street, my first thought is to hurry up and run to the gas station and buy a pack, fiercely suck down as many as I can in a five minute span and throw the rest to a homeless man/woman/infant on the corner begging for money. However, I haven't...yet. At times, when I am walking to dog, running, or driving in my car and I see a homeless person smoking, I actually think about bumming off of them. Is that sick?
That is all I have to contribute about this topic. Now that I am talking about it, I "need" a cigarette . When does that stop?
P.S., I started to quit by taking Chantix. Wasn't so bad at first and the taste of cigs were really bad, I didn't even really want one, and I didn't have any withdrawal. HOWEVER, I started to have very intense dreams, periods of sleep that were actually not sleep but awake but in an "altered" state, feelings that I was going insane, culminating in increasingly disturbing, depressed, morbid, and even downright crazy dreamws. I googled Chantix, and it seems others are experiencing this same phenomenon. By the last night I felt like I couldn't go to sleep b/c some crazy dreams would happen and I wouldn't be able to wake up from them(of course this is all happening when I wasn't quite asleep yet, but not awake...and my mind took on a mind of its own). That said. It did get me over the first hump. I'll never try that again!
Maybe that should be a lesson to me so that I don't start smoking again, and by smoking I mean buying my own cigs, not bumming off of homeless teens, nor smoking regularly everyday.
Another postcard from home is in the mail!
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I've been eyeing up the nicotine gum, but haven't brought myself to make the committment. Good for you!
PS - I'll bring the smokes on Saturday when we go to church. Did you forget? It better be on your calendar.
Ohhh here we go again! Is this like your 100th time quiting smoking? YOU CAN DOOO IT!
From the Chantix official website:
The most common side effects of CHANTIX include:
-nausea (30%)
-sleep problems (trouble sleeping, or vivid, unusual, or strange dreams)
-constipation
-gas
-vomiting
I knew that Chantix sounded too good to be true! I still think you can quit without it. I am here for YOU.
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